Beauty

My DadI want to write about what happened this weekend. But I just can’t. Not really. Not yet.

If you don’t already know, my Dad died on Saturday. He had stage 4 small cell lung cancer. We found out he was ill in February. It was very fast. Too fast.

Here is what we posted on Dad’s Facebook page:

3/24/2012 – We are sorry to report that Walter Maheux passed away peacefully this evening at 8:10 p.m. surrounded by family at his home in Westbrook.

Last night he a moment of clarity, also surrounded by his loved ones, and he told us, “Don’t think I don’t notice all the angels around me. Family, that’s what’s important.” and “I love you all.”

We were blessed to have Walter/Dad/Uncle/Friend in our lives. Thank you all for your kind words and prayers. Love to you all ~ Lanna, Dottie, Billy, and Edmund.

It hasn’t quite sunk in yet. I haven’t broken down. I’ve cried, but I fear a melt-down may be in order. And that’s okay. Dad deserves a melt-down or two. He wouldn’t want us to be unhappy, but tough.

Comments

  1. I don’t dare tell you how to feel or cope, but my own experience was it took time when my Mom passed to break down. In the early days after her passing, I was in doing mode. I think it’s when the dust settles and you are in that quiet space that generally is when you have the breakdown. A breakdown is not about always about being unhappy, sometimes it’s what you need to truly release and let go. You are a strong woman and you will handle this in whatever way feels best for you.

  2. Walter was a beautiful man with an amazing son and daughter. I love you!

  3. Canadian Cousin says:

    Hard to believe he is gone so quickly. I feel lucky he found me and I had a couple of wonderful visits. My thoughts and prayers are with all of you.
    Love from your Canadian Cousin.
    Val

  4. I remember when my dad died, it was hard, but you take the time to have a private melt down, and go on from there, he will always be there in your heart and memories, of which you have many.

  5. Robin V. says:

    I remember when my dad died, it was awful, I had my own meltdown, and went on from there with great memories!!

  6. Betty Morrell says:

    I am so very sorry to hear this. You will remember your dad as you are doing certain things. For example, I would be weeding the garden and say to myself, “I’ve got to call Mom and Dad and tell them to come over and look. I know they will be proud.” And then I would remember they were gone. But they are never gone. Keep all those good memories. Remember and smile! Remember and cry. God will help you with this transition, just as He helped your dad, especially in those final hours and minutes.

  7. Julie Porter says:

    Don’t be afraid of the emotions you feel. The last time I lost someone close to me, I remember being in the supermarket and thinking “Here I am looking at vegetables, and he’s dead. How can that be?” When my sister-in-law died, my husband and the rest of the boys from Maine were crying like babies at her funeral. Everyone has their own way to pass through this. Offer your sorrow up as a tribute to this wonderful father and don’t be afraid to mourn if that’s what you need to do. Peace, my friend.

  8. Amanda Shedonist says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss, but so grateful you had that last month to treasure the time you had. Sometimes we don’t even get that. There’s no “right” way to grieve and it will indeed come in waves over time and in different ways. I still do things I want to tell my Mom about or see ads for movies I know she would love. Just remember you are not alone, even when you choose some alone time for yourself. Big hugs and love. I’m here anytime. I love you.

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